Silence

Silence is the most powerful punishment that one can get. I remember in my teenage years like other teenagers I wanted to do all cool, fun things young people in my age were doing.

Fortunately for me, I had caring and wonderful parents but at the time I did not realise that they were. I would go up with my friends till mid night, my mom used to call me a 100 times yelling for me to come home. I hated the fact that she was calling me, I felt like she did not want me to have fun and just be a n uncool freak who was always at home studying. I sometimes yelled backend she had enough and decided to give me the worst punishment “silence”.

The first time she did not say anything I was so relieved, I loved the idea of coming home and do whatever pleases me without a lecture. As time went by I missed my mom’s screams and the lectures she used to give me and then I decided from that moment that I loved being a mommy’s girl and I loved the attention I got from her and the way she used to yell at me. And I knew even though she was silence, what I was doing was killing her and we were both torn apart but we just kept quiet.

"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. "

This is one of my favourite quotes by George Bernard Shaw 

People are so afraid to do the things they want because they are afraid that they might not work out the way they planned them. They are afraid that they might be judged for their mistakes but I am one of the people who don’t care about being judged.

I am always ready to do new things and ready for new challenges. I don’t care whether they do not succeed because at least ill know that I tried. Mistakes are a part of life, a person who failed trying is better that a person who did not try again. Mistakes are a good way of learning so even if you make a mistake be proud because you had the courage to do it.

Only bad things happen quickly

 I agree with this statement, bad things do happen quickly this is because we are not aware and we are not always prepared for them to happen. No one wants bad things happening in their lives so no one awaits for them, when they finally do it’s like a big rock has finally hit your head and there is nothing you can do about it.

Everything in life has its own time, whether good o ad we just all have to be prepared and be able to overcome them.

home is where the heart is

Ever since I finished high school, I became a traveller. I spend most of my time away from home and it’s been four years now but believe me the pain and the longing don’t get better.

Some days are better than the others but not even a single day passes by without thinking about my hometown, family and friends. I moved to Cape Town in 2009 because it was the only institution closer to home. When I left home I was so excited, couldn’t wait to get away from my parents. The thought of me staying alone was just too exciting but I guess I was just fooling myself.

There is no better place like home. I cannot wait to finish my exams , pack my things and leave Cape Town for good. 

The power of music

There is nothing more healing and powerful than a song. Whether I am having a bad or a good day I always find my comfort in music.

I sometimes think that there are specific songs that were written for me, when I listen to a song I make sure I am in a comfortable position. A song makes me relax, it makes me forget all my worries and only think about the good. A song can change my mood, when I am depressed, frustrated and heartbroken I always listen to Adele’s songs and hearing about her heart break and pain I forget about mine and feel sorry for her. When I am in a happy mood I always listen to the latest house music and dance.

“Music is the language of the spirit. It opens the secret of life bringing peace, abolishing strife."

If not now, then when?

I want to go out, travel the world and forget all my worries. I want to climb the tallest mountains, go on a boat cruise and have no care in the world.

I just want to leave everything behind, forget the past and not think about the future. I just want to be happy and leave only in the present. Just imagine leaving a wild life, party like no tomorrow, dance on the table and do whatever you want to do.

i want to spread my wings and fly away

I am young, have dreams and I am educated so if I cannot do all those things now then when?

True friends are best advisers

Think of the other things that you went through, how they affected your life, have you ever given up then?

My friend used to say “uThixo akanokunika umthwalo ongenakuwunyamezela” meaning that God can never give us more than we can handle. Every time I found myself in a difficult situation  She would just look at me without any pity and say “you are not the only person who has suffered, it’s up to you whether you want to get up and pull yourself o just lie there and feel pity for yourself” . Every time she uttered those words I felt angry, hurt and confused. I hated her for not comforting me but because of the hatred I felt for her, I also felt an urge that I wanted to show her that I can pull myself together without any help from anyone.

Now we are both older and wiser and I knew that she really meant well, she was teaching me not to rely on anyone but to be a woman who can take charge of her life.